Just so we're clear, yes.... I do know that the following post makes me a loser! :^) In 2007 I graduated from nursing school and everything was going as planned in my life. I got a job as a great hospital, I moved to a new city by myself where I didn't know many people, and I moved into a brand spankin' new condo. After a couple of months of training as a nurse, it was time to take my NCLEX (nursing licensure exam). Unfortunately I had failed it, and my life started to unravel. I lost my job as a result, and I depleted my savings account trying to pay for the brand new condo and other bills while I was unemployed and trying to find work in a bad economy.. I kept trying to pas that stupid exam, but after three failed attempts I decided that I was done with nursing and went back to school to become a teacher. No point sitting around to rot while I was trying to get a grip on my life, right?
So in the fall of 2008, I went back to school. I was a straight A student, as usual, but I wasn't enjoying school and I found out that I didn't really want to be a gym teacher. Sure I love fitness and I love teaching, but not for the rest of my life.. I decided that I was going to finish up the year and then try again to become a nurse because the only thing standing between me and my original goal was the test. I studied my butt off and I took a week long review class to refresh (the Hurst review). Two years out of school and out of the hospital, I knew I had a lot of work ahead of me to be able to pass that thing. I did the live review twice in two different cities, and then I did their online review five times. I was determined, and I had a plan.
Of course I had moments where I doubted myself. Would I be able to do it? Was this too ambitious after being away for so long? Did other people believe in me? I wasn't sure about any of those things, but this was what I wanted. While I was at those review classes, I felt alive again. I loved nursing school and I loved being in the hospital. I felt like I was back in the game and I was focused. Hearing and talking about nursing was great! It helped me prepare and it gave me hope.
To keep on subject, let's talk about the song that helped me through it. As embarrassing as it is, the artist that helped my through this tough time was Miley Cyrus. Yep, go ahead and start laughing.... I don't like her shows and most of the time I think her voice is annoying, but when I would hear her song "The Climb" on the radio, I felt like the words were coming from me. That is how I felt and those were my thoughts! Every time I heard that song I had renewed fear about the future, but also renewed determination.
I still love this song, and I always sing along (unless someone is with me!). Here are the lyrics in case you've never heard it. =)
I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on
'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!
Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa
No comments:
Post a Comment